life goals

to be updated as i think of more things

1. to be a successful, showing artist
   
2. to have the means to live in portland or some similar woodsy area
   
3. to roadtrip from the top of mexico to the tip of argentina (ideally on a motorbike, but we're trying to be realistic here)
   
4. to never stop believing
   
5. to master janet jackson's dance moves
   

toil and trouble

my candlemaking supplies came in! (yes, i do save my packing paper for drawing and yes, that is a hexagonal mold! have a witchin' halloween!)

new work

the pain of parting / the pathos of wandering / the shock of meeting
a girl / a ship / a mouse

my first attempt at soundscapes, small drawings and a more decentered narrative.

dream

i am flying in a helicopter over the falkland islands. we swoop sharply down into an arctic environment and i encounter a penguin with a blue forehead. we continue onward over the map of south america to melbourne, which is all lit up and orange against the night like a sylvain chomet film.

it was vivid and exhilarating. i had no idea such scapes existed in my head.

on other news i am applying to grad school. it's causing in me a lot of anxiety and hermit-like behavior. pray for me?

so weird

i read yet another major newspaper article today about the neverending recession, which was pretty darn scary, but not as scary as then perusing some photographs of aids in vietnam and feeling completely detached from the other hemisphere of the world. one of my greatest fears is being a poor global citizen. living in the states and in california in particular, it's tough deciding which consciousness of the world is fake and which is real. another reason to keep doing what we do and having compassion for what we don't do, because that's the only thing we can be really sure of.

love you so much it makes me sick

one youtube foray into the vaselines and a few clicks later, i find that my kurt love is still burning and well, and in fact improves with aging and distance. what is it about your paleness that will always suggest trees, sacredness, and cobalt blue more than anything else?

on a side note, tony wilson's impact on british punk is highly underrated. absolutely charming!

pleasure reading

ironic that i brought this volume to las vegas? totally. my mother asked if attending a wedding there made me want to get married any sooner. i told her quite the opposite, and she told me to stop spending so much time with the boyfriend. the woman is kind, but she is also goal-oriented. anyway, my month of leaving los angeles is over, time to settle down and work!