i keep on having dreams that suggest restlessness and conflict between two states of being. running through corridors, staircases, courtyards that connect two separate rooms or spaces - an architectural allegory for internal conflict. feeling condemnation. saturated lurid colors, especially yellow (my dreams are usually very pleasant pastels). being called upon to perform difficult tasks. recurring presence of key figures in my life (the idol, the wanderer, the anchor).
creative output is at a zero right now, motivation is starting to dip into the negative part of the y-axis. to pacify myself, i dope myself on sugar, which inflames my body dysmorphia, hardcore. i feel nervous and unquiet in the daytime too.
About Me
- carola rola
- I unofficially take photographs and charm people for a living. Officially, I received a B.F.A. from Cornell University, and am now on the West Coast making websites, planting gardens, and damning the man. Be my friend at carol[dot]why[dot]zou[at]gmail[dot]com.
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