diptych of youtube screencaps stored on my computer; window into my existential interior

top: april skies
bottom: dreams

i could make a career out of painting screencaps (the spaces in between) from music videos. why don't i?

90s hits that are also new wave films

the corrs - breathless - jean luc godard
the cranberries - dreams - ingmar bergman

significance? i'm not sure. all i know is that i spent too much time reliving my natalie imbruglia love affair this morning (any movies named 'torn'??).

pop quiz

i've been thinking about the 90s lately and how much of them will come back in the 2010s, as trends tend to cycle through a 20 year period. i started by assessing my personal sense of 90s-ocity with this list from 90swoman. my answers are bolded.

by the way, i am so ready to emerge from a bush-induced economic crisis into the heyday of the clinton years.

You might be a 90s Woman if…

• Any of the following changed your life: Bikini Kill, Nirvana, 7 Year Bitch, Hole, Babes in Toyland, Sinead O’Connor, Lisa Carver, Tank Girl, Sister Spit, Liz Phair.
• You have had a crush on any of the following: Paul Rudd, James Spader, Brittany Murphy, Winona Ryder, Johnny Depp (21 Jump Street era).
• You’ve read Sassy.
• When you heard Billy Corgan and Jessica Simpson were dating you got upset.
• You’ve made a mix tape on an actual tape.
• You know lines from Clueless.
• You’ve marched for abortion rights, against the first Iraq War, or for Take Back the Night.
• You have ever been into Wicca, eco-feminism, or liberation theology.
• You have a speech ready whenever any of the following come up: Camille Paglia (RAVING PSYCHO!), WAM, Katie Roiphe, or the Michigan Womyn’s Festival.
• You think any of the following items of clothing are hot: thigh-highs, plaid shirts, work boots with dresses, cat-eye glasses, chunky heels, baby-doll dresses, overalls, plaid, flannel, bra straps showing, barrettes.
• You’ve dyed your hair a color not found in nature, ideally with Manic Panic.
• You are all over your birth control responsibilities.
• It would never occur to you that women wouldn’t work or that men wouldn’t clean the house.
• You have self-identified as bisexual (even if you’re gay or straight).
• You can do a feminist analysis of your favorite pop culture.
• You started—or at least read—a zine. Now it’s a blog or tumblr.
• You are both ironic and sentimental. But for real, not like that “like rain on a wedding day” Alannis Morissette irony song, which you have mocked but know all the words to.

songs about dreams

nice dream - radiohead
moonage daydream - david bowie
dream at tempo 119 - silversun pickups
love dream - franz liszt
dreaming - robert schumann
dripping dream - sonic youth
bird dream of the olympus mountain - the pixies

soft, what light through yonder window breaks

i would like to share with the internet this image of kurdt kobane, which i had never seen before until today. thank you, my favorite 14-year-old blogger.

the birthday wish

my 90s first generation immigrant family had an incredible knack for economy. we saved the same 'happy birthday' banner and christmas tree for years, and no matter where we were they would appear with regularity.

in search of nirvana

in interviews you're just the heroin addict next door, the boy i always knew. but on stage you become something beside yourself, a energy conduit bridging human listeners and a spiritual whole. gosh i have the urge to paint some youtube stills.

celebrity men for whom i feel equal jolts of attraction and terror

(reasons in parentheses)

1. christian bale (american psycho)


2. christian slater (heathers)

casual audience poll

would it ever be possible to refer to savage garden in a non-ironic manner?